Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Being Proud...

So I was in charge of my first major event at work this past Sunday. It was SO nerve racking! And all of last week, I was so freakin stressed over it. I seriously didn't think that I could do it. And my boss just wasn't hearing that. I was basically in tears telling him that I just didn't think I was the right person to do it. But he wasn't listening to that. He just told me that he thought I was capable and that I would do a good job. So after that, at least I felt like I had warned him if I totally bombed. And that in itself made my life a little less stressful.

So Sunday comes around, and I'm calm but still really nervous. We were having 2 sessions because so many kids signed up. Oh, by the way...if you didn't know, I teach gymnastics and I'm also in charge of all the special events, like birthday parties, camps, Parents Night Out, and All Star meets. Anyway, my boss stayed for the first session, and thank God he did! There were a few moments where I knew I couldn't have gotten through them on my own. But he left for the 2nd one and said good luck. Everything went smoothly and was great! I actually did it! I was totally relieved :)

And that's the excitement in my life right now. Next weekend, we have the Fun Meet for all the younger kids and also my bachelorette party. Tiff is coming up with all kinds of crazy things, it seems. So yes, I'm a little afraid at this point.

Then the next weekend is the wedding! Wow, I can't believe it's finally here! I'm really excited to see everything come together. Hopefully there will be no problems. My fingers are crossed, anyway :)

Thursday, April 10, 2008

In the Midst of It All....

I can't imagine my life being anymore stressful than it is right now. There is SO much going on! My wedding is only a month away, and I just feel like there are so many loose ends right now. I've also got a lot going on at work, which really shouldn't be stressful but it is to me. Basically because I'm in charge of a lot of things, and I just have to tell myself that I AM capable of doing it.

I have an AMAZING support system right now, though, and I feel like I owe these people so much! They are taking as much weight off my shoulders as they can, and still dealing with their own lives as well. So I thought I would give them some shout outs and thank yous for all that they are doing.

First of all, to Seth. He encourages me daily and tells me that I'm strong enough to handle it all. He believes in me, and that gives me strength. I love you, Seth, and cannot wait for our perfect, magical day :)

Next comes my best friend Tiffany. It's hard sometimes because we don't live as close as we used to, but she's always calling me to check on things and see how I'm doing. She's being my rock right now and I love her for it. Thanks, Tiff. I don't know where I would be without you in all of my craziness!

To my sisters, Michelle and Stephanie. You guys are amazing! You have done so much for me in planning this wedding and I'm so glad that you're going to be part of my day. Steph, you seriously have gone above and beyond and also saved me TONS of money! I love you and appreciate all that you have done. Shelle, thanks for everything! I love you and am so proud of all your hard work. Hopefully soon we'll be talking about your wedding ;)

To my friends in my Mom's group, wow ladies! Thank you for listening to all of my vents and giving me awesome advice throughout everything. I seriously appreciate each and every one of you. I can't wait for you to see the outcome of all of this! *Hugs*

Amy, I seriously am so excited about the wedding cake! THANK YOU for everything! And I don't mean just the cake, I mean everything. We have been friends for so long, and you have seen me at my worst as well as at my best. You've never judged me or questioned and have always supported me. I love you and can't wait to help you with your wedding!

Jennifer, I am truly heartbroken that you can't make it here for the wedding, but I understand. Please know that you are in my heart and will be here with me. You have also never judged me, but made me think about my choices in life in a different way. I love you for that and for who you are. Hopefully we'll see each other soon because I REALLY miss you!

If I left anyone out, just know that it wasn't done because you aren't special. Every single one of you who take the time to read my ramblings and see what's going on in my life mean the world to me. And thank you for being a part of my life!

Friday, April 4, 2008

Who I Am...

Some people don't like tattoos. They think they are tacky and silly. My father is definitely one of those people. However, I think differently. I think they are an expression of who you are and it's also a chance to put a little piece of artwork on your body. Now, yes...they can be silly and stupid. If you just get one for the sake of getting one, and it means nothing to you, then there's a definite chance that you are going to regret it later. But every single one that I have means something to me and represents something. So I thought to myself, why not blog about it?

The first one I ever got was a small butterfly on my right shoulder. I got it just a few days after turning 18 years old. It was my first step to independence, and I loved it! It was small and simple and meaningful. And that's a picture of it at the top.

When I was 19 years old, my boyfriend and I of 1 1/2 years broke up. For awhile, I had felt distant from him, but he just would not let me go. Then other events happened, and he no choice but to back off. So my best friend, and roomie at the time, went to a tattoo shop and I got my 2nd one. It's a daisy with some purple tribal on my left ankle, and again...I loved it. It meant that I was ok on my own and I didn't need a guy to be that way. I was proud of myself for finding some inner strength and getting through it.

Then at age 20, came my 3rd one. I had just moved in with Seth and was starting a new life. My father was furious with me, but at that time, I just didn't care. So Seth and I went and got tattoos together. This was the beginning of a new me. It's on my lower back, and although it's pretty faded and needs some touch up now, I still love it and what it stands for in my life.

And finally, just last month got my final one. I plan on touching up the others, but no other new ones for me. In the last 6 years, since my last one, I've been through a lot. I have hit rock bottom and climbed my way back to the top. Seth and I took a break from each other a couple of years ago, and it was the best thing we could have done for each other at the time. Now our relationship is so much stronger and 100 times better. I also happen to be passionate about words, and if you know me at all, you know that my all time favorite is "Faith". That's what has gotten me through so many tough times, and continues to do so. I believe in it so much, that Brooklyn's middle name is Faith. So I decided to improve my first tattoo. Since I am no longer that carefree, naive 18 year old, I decided to add to it to represent my life right now. I went to Touch of the South Tattoo here in Murfreesboro and talked to Sergio. I did a lot of research this time around so I could make sure that I found the right artist. He is incredibly talented and free handed this on me. And he was rockin out the whole time, which I loved. That's it up on the top left.

So anyway, that's a little peek into my head and my thoughts on tattoos. I understand they aren't for everyone, but don't judge someone just because they have some. Chances are that they mean something to that person, and the story might be pretty cool.