Monday, August 16, 2010

Something To Keep In Mind...

8We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; 9persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed.

16Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. 17For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. 18So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.

~ 2 Corinthians 4:8-9;16-18

Thursday, August 12, 2010

Maybe if I blog about it, it will get better...

So about a month ago, something happened. Someone broke into our house and stole my laptop and $120. Out of everything in our house, that was it. So on some level, I feel fortunate. There are so many other things that could have been taken, but they were not. On another level, I am very angry and hurt and sad. My laptop had my LIFE on it! All my pictures, music, things I've done for work...GONE! Things that are irreplaceable. And what's worse is, I was planning on backing everything up the weekend that it happened...stupid on my part.

The problem with this situation is simple. I feel like it had to have been someone we knew b/c of what was taken and the time of day that it happened. I mean, come on. We have TVs, gaming systems, a desktop PC...and the only thing they took was my laptop and money from Seth. They knew what they wanted and where it was b/c the money was not in plain sight. AND they took the power cord for the laptop, but took out my iPod cord out of the computer and left it sitting on my desk. Really. Thanks for being thoughtful and leaving that, but with my laptop you took my iTunes...WITH ALL OF MY MUSIC FOR MY IPOD!

I am not a person who holds grudges by nature, but I can't seem to let this go. There are HOURS worth of work gone that I have to redo. I've slowly but surely been getting my music back. My pictures are completely and totally gone, and I'm STILL kicking myself. I am angry, hurt, disappointed..and I have no where to channel that. I don't know what to do with these emotions. And yes, it is over something semi-silly. But then again, it's not silly at all to me.

The moral of this story is simple: BACK UP YOUR COMPUTERS!! Then, at least, you'll have everything to put on another computer. And it's really sad when you feel can't trust anyone...b/c that's what got us into this in the first place. Someone took advantage of our trust and our loyalty. I can pretty much promise that it won't happen again.

Tuesday, June 22, 2010


I lay here with my eyes closed, and a soft breeze whispers across my skin. I lay here thinking of you; the past, the present, and even the future. I see how far we have come, and yet we have so much further to go. The milestones, and even the obstacles, stretch before us. They sit there waiting for us to come to them; to pass them and leave them in our wake. But only to leave countless ones still on the horizon, still waiting patiently for us. And all we can do is continue on in hopes of finding peace and hope.

In the past there is pain and hurt. It has been caused by us all, and can never be undone. It will always be waiting in the shadows, hoping for one of us to bring one of them back into the light and use them against each other. Pettiness and greed, feelings forgotten and discarded. The sadness can be overwhelming, but only if we let it. In the corner of that place, there is also hope and forgiveness. A longing to move on and to forget. But they say that we can never forget. We can only hope to forgive and move past it.

There is also love and happiness resting in the past. Smiles shining brightly, attempting to overcome and erase the pain. Those are the milestones that keep us going, reminding us that there is more than anger and tears. There is love that runs deeply and passionately, rolling over us and giving us hope and faith in each other.

The present is a mixture of both trials and joy. While it seems that there is always grief and heartache, there is also excitement and contentment. When that one door closes, we are promised another one to be opened. But you have to be willing to let it open for you. You need an open heart and mind, a willingness to put one foot in front of the other, even with the darkness trying to close it in your face. Fall to your knees; allow the goodness to overcome the evil.

The future waits for us, untold and wondering. I’ll take your hand and hold it. I’ll give you the strength that you need, but I need yours in return. Alone we are only half of the force we could be. Together we can conquer all. We can pass by those obstacles and only visit the milestones. We can leave the blame and hurt feelings behind. We can focus on the love and trust we share together. We can find that happiness that no one believes exists anymore.

So as I lay here with my eyes closed, knowing that there are things to come, I smile. The breeze flutters once more, reminding me of reality and that I am never truly alone. My heart is full and beating quickly in anticipation. Just know that together, anything is possible. We defy the odds that others gave us.